Dear *Tumelo

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it when I changed tennis shoes in your camping car and I saw you sit on my father. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that I get turned on by garbage men. I'm returning your memories from the military service to you, but I'll keep the oil sticks as a memory. You should also know that I get sick when I think of a new life as a clone.

Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,
Flare

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-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service


9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college


10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked


11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics


12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

The RULES

1. Tag 5-10 people (except for the one who sent it to you)
2. Answer all truthfully
3. Take it in public!
4. Tell all taggees on their profile that they have been tagged, and link to your journal

? = In the middle-ish
~ = Sort of-ish

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars (they're quite minor, though)
[~] I tan easily
[~] I wish my hair was a different color (I want to dye it a crazy, un-natural colour eventually_
[~] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color (It's my natural colour, but its got through it)
[ ] I have a tattoo. (Not yet, but I want one..maybe two)
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[~] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (people I know online, but not IRL)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
[ ] I hate my dad.
[ ] I hate my mom.
[~] I have a brother. (doppleganger! <3)
[ ] I have a sister.
[x] I've sworn at my parents
[~] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job. (getting one when I get back from England)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. (HAH!)
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year. (Year before last)
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation. (waaaay more than once)
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my trousers/pants rip in public
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. (will be in July)
[ ] I had a serious surgery
[ ] I've had chicken pox
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada (live here xD)
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe. (September!)
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[~] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[~] I've been to a casino. (on a cruise ship. I wasn't gambling, just passing through)
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle. (To open birthday presents!)
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[~] I've been in a play. (choir assembly)
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi. (for the first time ever earlier this year!)
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (movie, have yet to see the play
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[~] I'm engaged (if things go to plan).
[~] I'm married (" ")
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I'm gay.
[ ] I've had sex.
[ ] I've had phone sex.
[x] I've cybered.
[ ] I've had sex in public.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain. (heehee, not yet)
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't. (Promised myself, and a friend, that I wouldn't tell another blonde joke...and I just did... )
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying. (Fallen asleep crying, woken up, started crying again, fallen asleep. Lather, rinse, repeat.)
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own a plushie of my fave character from anything. (GRUNNY!)
[ ] I own a cosplay outfit.
[x] I know what cosplay means.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic. (the coolest pants in the world)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap. (scarf, I think)
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie. (Ew.)
[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[~] I open up to others easily. (depends who it is)
[~] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs. (I make others do it for me )
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar (most definitely yes).
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[~] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[~] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[~] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[~] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[ ] I loath labels.
[x] I like action movies.
[ ] I like horror movies.
[x] I like chick flicks. (don't mind 'em, but they aren't my favourite)
[~] I know the most random facts about things people have never heard of before.
[ ] I can't spell.
[x] I treasure my friends.
[ ] I think of others before myself.

[x] All of those are answered honestly.

tag:
1. snapdragon350
2. Tumelo
3. whitecanvasdesigns
4. LittlePear
5. zombie-bumblebee
6. interseting

Whoever else wants to do it, feel free.

Is this damned month ever going to end? We're barely half-way into it and I already can't wait for it to be over.

It's the new year. Days are supposed to fly by, not lag. I hate lag. Especially when I'm waiting for something that I'm practically going to die without. I should say someone, not something.

July is taking it's sweet-ass time getting here. I swear to god I'm going to explode if something doesn't change to make it feel like time's going faster. School's going well so far, so that helps the day go by fairly quickly...but when I'm at home, it seems to drag on forever...especially after those precious three or four hours...

And then stupid things like tonight happen, and I just get dragged further down this stupid hole.

I had taekwondo tonight, spent the whole class working on my form...and then a whole 'nother hour after class working on it -more-. It seemed the more times I did it, the harder and more frustrating it became. My instructors kept telling me to relax and just let the moves flow..but it's really hard to do that when you're not 100% sure what the next technique is. You guys have no idea how glad I will be to be done with this stupid form!

It's so dumb, because today was a totally normal day. Nothing overly good happened, nothing horribly bad happened, and school's going really smoothly right now. It was totally neutral. But then I go to taekwondo, and the whole day just goes downhill. No wonder I was dreading going so much beforehand.

At least there's something to look forward to tomorrow. No, not Valentine's Day. EMO DAY.

Yeah, that's right. My friends and I are boycotting this stupid holiday.

I'm sick and tired of all these couples flaunting their togetherness to the rest of us that are either single (and hating every second of it), or in a relationship but unable to be with our significant other. Plus it's become all stupid and corporate. "Ooh, I've neglected my loved one, I need to go out and buy all sorts of ridiculous things (that will be gone in three days anyway) to fix my lack". Hate to break it to you, but chocolate gets eaten, and flowers DIE. WORDS are the best way to fix things...not material goods.

ANYWAY, enough of that.



HAPPY EMO DAY, everyone.




(And yes, I am technically a hypocrite, because if my boyfriend were here, I would be celebrating V-Day..but not with -things-, with him)

To use a line from my November journal, somebody put my world back together.
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We're back from our two-week trip to Hawai'i. I had a great time, but got really homesick on the last few days.

We spent a week at a hotel on Waikiki Beach in Honolulu, and then spent a week cruising around the islands.

During our week in Waikiki, we went to Waimea Falls Park, toured the Missouri at Pearl Harbor, spent three days browsing the shops in Waikiki, and spent one day driving along the eastern coastline, watching the waves crash on the cliffs, and watching a volcanic formation called "The Blowhole". Took tons of pictures, some of which I should be posting here in a while.

The 7-day cruise consisted of a day in Hilo, Hawai'i, two days at Kahului, Maui, a day in Kailua-Kona, Hawai'i, and two days in Nawiliwili, Kaua'i, then back to Honalulu.

The day in Hilo was the best, as we got to see *whitecanvasdesigns, and his mom, dad, sister, and his sister's boyfriend. The second day on Maui was great, too. We took a shuttle into Lahaina and spend a few hours browsing the shops there. There was a really neat shop that had a whole bunch of celebrity art on display, it was amazing!

And I can't forget the day we left Nawiliwili. We cruised all the way around the island to the Napali coast. It was by far the most beautiful stretch of coastline I have ever seen in my life.

By then the homesickness had really set in, though.



Not only was I missing my friends and all the comforts of home, but my boyfriend, Imreln, and I had just made our relationship official the night before I'd had to leave. Leaving the next day was one of the hardest things I'd ever had to do.

I mean, it's hard enough having to deal with the fact that we've only got about three and a half hours to talk most nights, but when I didn't have unlimited access to the internet for two weeks things got really hard. We already have to deal with an 8-hour time difference, my being in Hawai'i made it 10 hours. Almost half a day behind.

To make things worse, the night we got home the internet was down for 4 and a half hours, so I didn't get to talk to him at all until the next afternoon. I don't know how either of us survived that, seeing as we were dying to talk to each other.

All I can think of now is how much it killed me not to be able to talk to him for those two weeks, but also how glad I am to finally be home and that I'm able to talk to him again.



But like I said, somebody put my world back together.

Being able to talk to him again makes me feel like all is right in my world. Now all I have to do is wait for July.

We're planning a trip to England, Dad says we'll leave practically as soon as I'm finished school.

I think we're going to plan to spend about two weeks there, and Dad's talked about possibly going to Ireland or Scotland for two weeks, as well. Although I'm kind of hoping we don't, because my boyfriend has been planning a trip to Canada, and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that we can get on the flight back together.

And after two weeks together, I don't know how we'll be able to stand to be apart ever again...

BWAHAHAHAHA I'm 18 now, suckas! Hehehehe.

Okay. Little bit crazy there, ahhaha.
But can you blame me? I'M EXCITED.



Yes, I turned 18 on Tuesday the 11th. Don't feel any different... age is just a number, right?

Uhm..
Okay, nobody really cares about birthday presents...
...Christmas presents are usually cooler anyway...
..although, in my case...they're kinda almost the same thing...




...why am I using so many elipses?




ANYWAY. Blahlalala.
Got a magazine about glass (yay, glassblowing), watercolour-lesson-by-day desk calender for 2008, black turtleneck with pretty frilly-ish sleeves, couple of really neat dark/gothic fairy cards, kickass dragon poster, DIY spa kit, HMV giftcard, FEDORA!!!!! (black with white pinstripes, sexiest thing ever), really neat book with a whole bunch of playlists and recommended songs to acquire, annnnnnnnd ahahahaaha, I FINALLY GOT A WEBCAM. I'm so flipping excited, gonna set that up on Saturday.



Oh yeah, holy shit. We leave for Hawaii in roughly a week. Two weeks in Hawaii, one week in Honalulu, and then a week on a cruise ship. Can't remember all the ports of call, but I know the first one is a couple of hours in Hilo, on New Year's Day, where I will have the chance to see *whitecanvasdesigns again!! Crazy!

But at the same time, I'll probably be sick missing somebody so much. (I know you know who you are)



Art-wise, there should be some new stuff fairly soon. I've got a painting from my drawing & painting class that I want to add, as well as a couple of images from a Mushroom Study project that we had to do way back in September.

There will also be a photo or two from my trip to California in July 2006, I've been meaning to post them for over a year


Oh yeah, and I'm supposed to test for my camoflauge belt, in taekwondo, on the 20th of December. Gah!
We got stripe-tested for our one-steps on Wednesday, I was so nervous!
I've tested for two belts prior to the camoflauge (orange and yellow), but both times I was unable to attend the official testings, so this will be my first one, and I'm probably going to be so nervous that I'll be sick.
Although, from what my cousin tells me from when she did the official testing for her orange belt...it wasn't too bad....


Uhhh, so, yeah. That's pretty much all the updating I have to do for now.

Night kids.


EDIT, December 20th, 2007: Tested for our camo belts tonight, and PASSED.
I have a freaking camoflauge belt, mothafuckas!
Sadly, the excitement has already kinda worn off.
When I first got home after the testing, I looked like this:

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